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[25 Feb 2009|02:25am] |
Wow... I'm almost thinking about writing here again...
Does anybody do this anymore?
Or read this?
<3 Chandra
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[03 Aug 2006|01:53pm] |
I'm really not liking how life is going right now.
I'm seriously concidering moving far away.
No, not back to PA.
Somewhere completely different from the norm.
The only thing holding me back is the sweet apartment I'm about to move into..
Bittersweetcrap!
I just want to dissapear.
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[28 Jul 2006|04:11pm] |
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So, Just out of curiosity, does anyone still read this thing?
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| About me. |
[30 Apr 2006|12:34am] |
just being real.
__I scrunch my nose when I laugh too hard__I constantly change my hair__My ears point at the top and form the shape of "elf ears"__I was once told I had "bedroom eyes" by a german exchange student__I'm stronger than I ever thought I was or could be__green makes me happy__I'm a completely different person than I was a year ago__Good news changed my life[ask me and I'll let you know how it can change yours too]_I can be very insecure on many levels__I love to make people happy__I can be very competitive__I love to laugh and be silly without being judged__I can't even tell you how much being called a "ditz" or anything of that nature totally offends and hurts me__I love to sing__I feel vulnerable and insecure when I DO sing__I can be very driven__I have a love hate relationship with my body__I'm in love with my best friend__I've never tried any drug, ever__up until high school I was told I looked like Lisa Kudro on a regular basis__I struggle with feeling replacable__If its pink or red(liquid or candy), it will taste good__I grab chocolate over chips__I'm a compulsive shopper__Sun flowers melt my heart__I want to be married more than anything__McDonalds anything makes me want to throw up__I'm a perfectionist and worst critic when it comes to my photography__I love dark and dreary days if I'm with Joshua__I hate dark and dreary days if I'm not with Joshua__I love hands.. everything about them__I hate clutter__I want a tatoo__Fish sandwhiches from any fast food place totally creeps me out__I've always been horribly afraid of shots__I don't have a temper what so ever__I've seen and taken pictures of [most of]your favorite bands__I can pick things up with my toes
I don't want to think anymore.
Maybe someday there will be a Part II.
As for now, this will work.
I'm thinking about giving up on this LJ...
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[21 Apr 2006|09:03pm] |
In the past week I (in no particular order):
__ Got extensions a weave
__ Saw an Amish dude wearing girls jeans
__ Wrote the BEST rap about "booya" known to man
__ Became a "Shelly" overnight
__ Deposited $420.69 by total chance
__ Cried
__ Saw poojoshy
__ Got annoyed at a painful facial mask
__ Laughed
__ Was fabulously ghetto
__ Fell in love with a girl (oh dang!)
__ Bonded
__ Posed for photos for 7.5 hours
__ Drove in the rain
__ Picked yellow and white lillies and put them in a bright blue vase!
__ Got wireless internet (cha-ching!)
__ Got to snuggle
__ Saw he is even more an inspiaration than I ever imagined
__ Felt incredibly left out
__ Felt incredibly loved
__ MissMissMissMissMisssssed home so freaking much!
This week will be brilliant.
Jessica and Shane will be gracing my presence Sundaynight/mondaymorning, and maybe NYC.
QUESTION OF THE DAY: WHAT inspires you (ex. art, stories... think!)
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[31 Mar 2006|11:07pm] |
I'm kind of nervous to make this entry, but...
Leave a comment here saying your name if you want to know what I really think of you, and I’ll reply and tell you in all honesty. All truth, no lies!
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[26 Mar 2006|12:03am] |
I have FIVE new pictures up on my savethefilm myspace if you guys want to go check it out.
Just click the banner and it will take you right there.
[you can put this banner up too if you want!]
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[18 Mar 2006|03:42pm] |
I'm really having a hard time lately with feeling lonely and feeling like I'm missing out on a lot.
Pray for me if you want.
I'm going to go read my bible.
question of the day: Is there anything I can pray for you about?
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[13 Mar 2006|11:46pm] |
Oh yeah, By the way..
Happy One Year, Joshua Logan Clark!!!!!!!
I love you.
Chandra
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[08 Mar 2006|01:12am] |
Hello everyone.. I was just posting to let all of you know I started a NEW myspace strictly for my photography!
Click that picture and it will take you right there!
Add me and we can be BFFFFF!
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[05 Mar 2006|01:26am] |
Photo taken by: Joshua Clark
Photoshop done by: (me)Chandra Fredrickson
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[04 Mar 2006|12:39pm] |
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[+] 5 a.m root beer floats
[+] 10 new movies
[+] fudge!
[-] no fantasticks!?!?!
[+] pictures
[-] getting lost 800 times
[+] new rockstar clothes
[+] new rockstar's girlfriend clothes
[+] scarey at first... until you get aquanted.
[-] windy malls "this blows!"
[+] smiley cookies that bubble at the mouth
[+] ground roundroundgroundroundround chuck groundroundroundgroundround
[+] hair lockets
[+] texting from the basement
[+] sweet camera video!
[+] la pizza hut, la hundai, la questa.. no La Quinta!
[-] creepy guy at the front desk
[+] "just around the lions head"
[+] :running to the car handinhand: "It's like a movie! Without the drama."
[+] warm touch
[+] kisses and hugs
[+] hugs and kisses
[-------------------------] teary goodbyes.
ILOVEYOUSOMUCH!
My boyfriend left today after an eight day stay.
It was so hard saying goodbye. Everytime seems to get harder.
Times were had, and times were fun.
I miss him already.
... I miss you already.
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[21 Feb 2006|10:47am] |
I hate working at the Y so freaking much.
I had to hold myself back from quiting about 5 minutes ago, and I'm still considering it.
They are the WORST organization I have EVER worked for.
Joshua is coming to visit next week and I told BOTH of my jobs THREE freaking weeks in advance that I would ONLY work the hours I was needed, and no more.
I call the Y today because Last night my mother told me that they were going to keep me on my regular 8 hour day...
So I just called the person who scheduals and she told me that it was true and THEN she started working it out over the phone what she could do (take 4 hours off 2 days... freaking big woop)... I don't understand why she couldn't have done this 3 weeks prior to this phone conversation. And Now I STIL have to work a 28 hour work week... She had to look and see who ELSE had off.
When I got off the phone I was a wreck.
I couldn't hold the tears in any longer.
I just wanted to spend time with him, and the job I hate most of all is keeping that from me.
And I almost need the job because they pay me more than any other job here would and they give me more hours than anyother job here would.
Joshua if you're reading this, I'm so sorry.. I'll try to work something out.
I really need you to call me tonight.
Please.
IhatethisplaceIwanttogohome.
Chandra
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[20 Feb 2006|11:39pm] |
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I've watched The Notebook two times already in the past two days... and I have it until Saturday..
I am pretty ri[freaking]diculous..
I used to want a love like that...
and now that I have it, I can't experience it [well... 50%]
Today has been a hard day for me.
Hard days have been becoming a regularity.
A lot of times, it's hard to look up.
I don't like it one bit.
Not one bit at all.
However...
1peter5:10
Pray for me, If you do that sort of thing.
I need it.
Now, more than ever..
I've been doing a lot of reminiscing..
I'm ashamed of how I've treated people in the past.
I also miss a crap load of people.
I kick myself for taking advantage of having my friends and loved ones around... now that they arn't... i realize it... I rule at that.
I need:
[]a hug
[]a hand
[]a phone call
[]a tissue
[]my bible
[]friday
[]a new job
[]patience
[]support
[]forgiveness
Lord help me.
Chandra
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[13 Feb 2006|09:41pm] |
I decided I would show you all more pictures from The Tide/Copeland show... because I don't have a website... and I like to assume you care haha.
( more )
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[07 Feb 2006|11:22pm] |
ATTENTION: I need someone who can make a SWEET website, for CHEAP, out of the goodness of their hearts, for me [my photography]. I've had THREE different people start over the past year and a half and all flaked.
That said:
Here are some select favorites from The Tide/ Copeland show.
I have more if you'd like to see more.
[since i don't have a website...]
( 026354895136549878 )
Thank you for looking.
Seriously.
Love you all.
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[06 Feb 2006|09:21pm] |
Well in case you all havn't read my wonderful boyfriends lj, I was in muskegon this weekend [thursday-thismorning].
I drove 6.5 hours to suprise my boyfriend by sitting outside of his classroom so he would see me when he walked out.
It was so nice to see and be with him again.
Although it was nothing but a tease to be there only a few days, I wouldn't trade them for the world.
I was able to see my some lovely friends and go to New Life.
Ah, what a awesome weekend.
My boyfriend is sweet because he gave me a nice little valentines bag o' goodies, including a stuffed lion that I can sleep with at night.
I made him a scarf that took FOREVER to make.
Admit it, we're the cutest couple ever.
It's hard to be back.
To think about going into my routine again.
I just want to be home.
It was so hard leaving this time.
The first time wasn't this bad.
Hopefully one week at the end of February will be a week to celebrate as well.
We can only hope.
And pray.
Question of the day: When the world seems enticing, where do you find hope?
[This is my hope:
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But thake heart! I have overcome the world." --John 16:33 ]
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[25 Jan 2006|06:31pm] |
I missed you a lot today.
For some reason, I've got my mind on our first kiss these days.
I don't know why.
I guess it was just that good to still be on my mind over almost a year later.
It's funny what your mind does when you miss someone.
The things you remember.
The things you don't.
I find myself thinking of all the small things.
The times you played with my hair until I fell asleep.
When we held hands for the first time.
The first time you held me while I was asleep.
The time(s) you cleaned my room while I was at work.
Your laugh.
Sorry for everyone else to read mushy gushyness.
But sometimes, we all deserve a quiet reminder that we are noticed.
That we are worth the time.
Are worth the thoughts.
Are worth love.
And you are worth all of that and so much more.
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Question of the day:What is one of the nicest things someone has done for you? (It doesn't even have to be like EVER, if you don't want. Even in the past month? Week? Few days?)
(I doubt many of you will answer because it requires thought and typing.. [which is no excuse] but if that is the case, at least think about it.
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